Heaven On An Empty Meter

24 Aug

When you go, you stay, but it takes
Forever for you to
Show up again

Though you do, you do
It’s one of those inevitable things
Like a late spring
Or finally the monsoon
Even though you take forever

Even though I had about forgot
And suddenly, there you are
Resplendent all over the place

I look at you there, and think “huh”
Who wouldda thought
But finally you are here without
Trapping me, I have finally
Made you my own


Building A Mystery

24 Aug


Calling A Name That’s Lighter

24 Aug

Hello spaces
You will get filled with something
Sort of like plastic
Soaking up toxins
If I don’t keep you

These new unplanned places
Like tiny caves in my head
In my heart
What will I grow there?

How will I keep my breath in you
Blowing out the bad air
In with the good air
Blessing the growth
That is me.

I must remind myself
To do this, lest sorrow remind me
Of other projects.

Old sorrow, she will live
In the soil of this tremulous lacuna
Waiting for direction of rot.

My Transgender Agenda

23 Aug

My thoughts on this subject have been evolving for around five years. Here’s what I got.

First: acknowledge that not only is this likely to go before SCOTUS, but that it *should* do so, because all this unresolved conflict is inevitably going to trickle down on the very exposed children involved with all this. I agree that they are the victims, though I don’t agree with transactivists as to exactly how they are victims. Also acknowledge that the trans rights legal people are likely to win. They have the money, skills, connections, funding, and reputations, and they may well have the Court, without a major sea change in public perceptions. ACLU alone has over 500,000 members and has an annual budget of over $100 million, and 2,000 volunteer attorneys. Lambda Legal notes here, about the recent Texas court ruling, that

Five civil rights organizations who had submitted a joint amicus (friend-of-the-court) brief in the lawsuit – Lambda Legal, American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) and ACLU of Texas; National Center for Lesbian Rights (NCLR); Transgender Law Center; and GLBTQ Legal Advocates & Defenders (GLAD) – issued the following statement in response to U.S. District Court Judge Reed O’Connor’s ruling:

A ruling by a single judge in one circuit cannot and does not undo the years of clear legal precedent nationwide establishing that transgender students have the right to go to school without being singled out for discrimination. This unfortunate and premature ruling may, however, confuse school districts that are simply trying to support their students, including their transgender students.

So let us make it clear to those districts: your obligations under the law have not changed, and you are still not only allowed but required to treat transgender students fairly.

The scope of this injunction has no effect on the ability of other courts or lawyers representing transgender people to continue to rely on the federal government’s interpretations of Title IX or on prior decisions that have reached similar conclusions about the scope of federal sex discrimination laws.

The court’s misguided decision targets a small, vulnerable group of young people – transgender elementary and high school students – for potential continued harassment, stigma and abuse.

Also, I think it is completely pointless and also is marginalizing to argue from the point of view that all transgenderism, transsexualism, is culturally and medically created (though I still suspect it is, the history argues for it) as long as we live in a culture that engages in so much enforced gender scripting. It makes it extremely difficult to sort out what is happening, and it’s unrealistic to expect most people to be interested in or even capable of understanding the analysis supporting this position.

So my position is to stop expecting the law to change when it’s supported by cultural values and medical practice. The weakest link is medical practice, go after that. Insist on something besides self-diagnosis of transgenderism based on gender stereotypes and a sense of being uncomfortable with one’s self. Insist that the possibility of co-morbid psychological conditions be addressed, and also that the possibility of patients’ evolving same-sex orientation be discussed, as a disproportionate number of gender dysphoric kids turn out to be gay, and not all homosexuals work out their orientation prior to adolescence. In fact, many do not, what with living in heteronormative cultures that do not freely encourage and support the idea of same-sex attraction as healthy and wholesome and generally normal and not freakish.

Insist, in other words, on a proper diagnostic process, not just treating all this like nose jobs. Treatment with testosterone, especially, is hazardous, and nobody really knows yet what extended off-label use of puberty blockers does to children.

Also fight back against this endless reducing the age of consent, which is pushed because “they’ll pass better.” These are children, not modeling clay.

Gender abolitionists get criticized for being extremists, but if we can’t all, transactivist and abolitionist alike, agree on it being wrong to misdiagnose people, and that this actually happens, and that transgender regret is a thing, and also social contagion, and that children are highly impressionable; then who is being intransigent here? Who is being extreme?



Caveat Emptor

23 Aug

Ethics and Public Policy Center, 22 August 2016

“According to a new report, scientific evidence fails to support the “born that way” theory of sexual orientation. In addition, there is “no evidence” that “all children who express gender-atypical thoughts or behavior should be encouraged to become transgender,” the findings state.”


This work, by Dr. Lawrence Mayer and Dr. Paul McHugh, both of Johns Hopkins University, is a good example of how people criticizing transgenderism can hold views dangerous to homosexuals. There are strong suggestions here that the authors view homosexuality to be some sort of aberration.

“Myth 1: Science proves that homosexuality and other forms of sexual orientation are biologically based (the “born that way” theory).

The authors reviewed several possible explanations for the “born that way” hypothesis, including genetics, exposure to prenatal hormones and neurobiological differences. They argue that science is not settled when it comes to understanding the origins of sexual attraction, sexual desires and sexual behaviors. In fact, the authors note, a scientific explanation of “sexual orientation” is problematic because the term “sexual orientation” means widely different things — sexual desire, sexual attraction, patterns of sexual behavior — to different people and therefore is hard to measure accurately.

In addition, by presuming that sexual orientation is rooted in genetics, researchers or clinicians may miss other relevant factors — including, for example, childhood physical or sexual abuse, which is experienced in disproportionately high numbers by nonheterosexuals. Moreover, if nonheterosexual desires, preferences and behavior were indeed biological, one might expect them to remain fixed throughout a person’s life. Instead, “there is now considerable scientific evidence that sexual desires, attractions, behaviors and even identities can, and sometimes do, change over time.” Adolescents especially exhibit fluidity of sexual desire, although the authors note “opposite-sex attraction and identity seem to be more stable than same-sex or bisexual attraction and identity.”

New study refutes LGBT ‘born that way’ theory, ‘transgender’ labels for children

Caught In A Landslide

21 Aug

I am a fine friend, and a terrible canard

I am an honored consultant, and a
Silly obsessive fool.

I am amazing, and ignored
I am your bestie, and I am abhorred.

Lost and found, this is my life
Oh Internet, you are
Excessively full of strife.

A little is inevitable
It’s just the weather
You know how that goes

We know how that goes

But lately this cyclone
Just never goes away
Circling around above
Howling like a revenant

So I am thinking maybe all
These words are beside the point
And maybe I will just use
Or cuneiform
Or some new thing I invent
To attempt to communicate ineffectually
Because this one isn’t working all that well.

So I am thinking about switching
To a new language
Likely as incomprehensible
But perhaps more attractive

I could draw it myself
I could carve its symbols into stray detritus
Or my flesh
I could use it to imagine forever

It would keep track
When I can’t anymore

There would be something reassuring
About all that. But meanwhile

It’s late and soon, and what’s left of the birds around here
Will show up soon, and the inexorable sun will dawn

And here I will be, here on my couch
Writing words, hoping for change.


“Cave Bears”

20 Aug



“You Don’t Know What You”

20 Aug



20 Aug


a rain and a gale

For all my sisters who’ve ever been invaded.

pressing, pushing

into our space

into our bodies

into our lives

“accommodate me, listen to me, let me in, take it, say yes”

forever receptacles

constantly making room for others

for their problems, for their bodies, for their time, for their needs

grieving the loss

of our time

our lives



don’t let go just yet

for I am with you


pushing back


for our rights


for what is rightfully ours

we are not receptacles

we are full to overflowing

we need our own space



don’t give up

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“Life Wants To Live”

16 Aug



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